Guardian of the Mind

12:42am: Im invisible.

10:08am: BBS aka Big Brother Syndrome.
So, I want to take a moment to explain BBS to myself. Kinda get the origins of why I have it and its major components factualized.

I have BBS.

What does that mean?

It means that I treat most people as if I were their Big Brother.

Consequences?

I fall in love with people quickly and would easily do anything for most people I know.
I feel as if it is my place to give everyone advice. Help any person I can.
I get frustrated with people who I treat as little siblings when they dont return the concern and support that would be given to a Older sibling.
It makes me feel old.
I open up emotion to alot of people but never inner feelings.
I strive for being brave and the shoulder for other people subconsciously.
I trust too easily.
I appear 'clingy' to people because I frequently make sure everything is okay. I am always trying to make peace.
I spend excessive amounts of time with people in over-load in direct correspondence to always spending excess amounts of time with my siblings.

Origins?

The only logical explanation I could come up with, is; The moving around frequently as a child has resulted in me not having the ability to build friendships in the manor of friendships. Most of my relationships when I was younger was only consistent with Family members. My Parents really dont play the role of parents, but more like older siblings. I constantly had to be the big brother for my siblings. Blazing the path for them to see the faults and the true paths. In this I think the only type of relationships I learned to build was Family oriented/ Big Brother relationships.

Future out-look problem that need to be Identified?

Caring too much about people who dont matter. [Appearing Clingy.]
Not freaking out on people who dont return similar concerns.

5:48pm: AHHHH!
Im all alone. in a lung killing enviroment. I need to eat, but have no clue where to do that. I need febreeze, but dont know where to get some. ahhhh.

SOMEONE SAVE ME!

10:23pm: Merry Christmas
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Even though its a fake Christian holiday. Its a holiday I needed. sleep. Hope you all get great presents! Hopefully Santa will be coming to your houses!

**WOAH** Move the 'n' in Santa over to spots, it spells Satan.** Weird.

Sleep well all.

9:11am: Thoughts
What if we are only in existence by fluke? Human Beings, which is considered the best in the animal kingdom by our own narcissistic society. Chimpanzees, the only major physical differences. We have a more developed vocal system. And we have opposable thumbs. Genetically, they have one more chromosome than us.

A test. To prove that we are in fact genetically related, and descendants of Chimps/Apes/Orangutans is simple.

First Test: (Genetically Related)

Remove the 'Split Chromosome' and replace it with the appropriate human chromosome. Basically creating a genetically modified clone. See what the results are. How we would be surprised with what we found.

Second Test: (Intelligence similarities)

Find a brain dead child, essentially about to die. Replace the child brain with a Chimpanzee brain of the appropriate age, blood type, and a match for other blood type anomalies. Inject the body with Stem cells, allowing the nerve cells to grow back and and giving the brain full usage of the body. Then we can properly test the full capabilities of the chimpanzee mind.


More later. Work time. Uhg all day. :(

6:19pm: Angel I am.
You scored as Guardian Angel

You would be a Guardian Angel. You would do anything to protect someone and keep them save. You would sacrifice your life to save a person you care about.



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Angel of Light		83%
Angel of Passion		83%
Guardian Angel		83%
Angel of Innocence		71%
Angel of Love		71%
Fallen Angel		33%
Angel of Darkenss		21%

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7:52pm: Big Day.
So today I accomplished quite a lot.

I helped one of my closest friends role-play... which I was horrid at. But good times were involved. We had a few laughs... I beat her 2-3 on Wii Bowling.

I helped another close friend relax... even though he called me gay.. twice... I tried nonetheless and hopefully I succeeded.

I am now a Bouncer at the BK Lounge, for all you Dane Lovers. :)

I opened a Bank account and deposited $500 in. (Feels Good)

I chatted with my Longtime best friend Joe, caught up on lost time. (The Distance)

I decided that I am going to move to Australia, to do Genetic Research (The evil kind) when I get older.

I had cookies for breakfast... (I'm a Scandal, what can I say)

Four Girls... in unison. Said I was Hot... to my sister... (Feels Good)

I still could use some love in my life. BUT if the rest of the summer was like today, I could not complain.

11:50pm: Hola!
So Memorial Weekend was good. Enjoyed Burning things and Kicking some ass on Mortal Kombat Shaolin Monks, (I have acquired a 2 Fatalities, 1 Mortality, and 1 Brutality, Kay only has 1 Fatality... MUAHAHA!) I have to be at school on the bright. Unfortunately... ahh well off to bed. Nighht!

4:12pm: Brarg
Uhg. I feel like crap.

10:23pm: Hot Fuzz!
BY THE POWER OF GREYSKULL GO AND SEE HOT FUZZ!

8:27pm: Two of them Live in my House...

8:48pm: Life
Lifes good all. Minus Stress, Life is Fabulous. Working on my Book. Pure Genious. I love it. Call me if you ever want to do soemthing... usually available.

-Steve

8:59pm: The Vest of Love.
The Vest of Love.
Warm.
Comforting.
Loved.
That feeling you get when
Her arms lock up around yours,
Forming tight sleeves.
Her Body presses up against yours,
Giving that Button-up jazzy feel.
Keeping you warm.
A little snug,
But you love it.
That perfect color,
That perfect feeling,
She's that perfect vest.
The right one.
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Note: I finally figured out how to decsribe this feeling. Took me a long time. What do you think?

8:42pm: Ight.
No School today. Pretty bad-ass. Went to see Stomp the Yard today. Pretty Good. No School Tommorrow. I have nothing whatsoever to do. Planning on being bored as FUCK! So if you want to hang or something Let me know!

9:52pm: A me Update.
Well today was better. I am not stressed out. I got to see Joe today. Hes doing very well. I also got to see my new house. Which I have a lot to say about. Like the fact that who ever the electrician was, was a fucking retard. My parents are kinda oblivious to this factor. But since I have taken Electricity 1 & 2, I know what supposed to be done. And things were backwards and just retarded. Also, apparently, the demographic is 90% white, yet Mexican Grocery stores and restaurants are ever two feet. Its crazy. Oh, and I gots a new LJ friend. Pretty exciting. Well. I am exhausted. 100 reps on all of my lifts and 600 crunches. Im really sore. :-P Most likely no school tommorrow. Temperature is supposed to be -25 degrees, anything under 0 degrees school has to close. Whether they do or not is a whole different story.

3:04pm: Enjoyed Freedom.
I never wanted it.
I never asked for it.
It just came.
I needed it.
I feel relieved.
When I think I should feel sad.
I am finally myself again.
Stress and Tension lines have been released.
Friendship is what I needed.
Its what I have.
Its what Im grateful for.

8:37pm: My Shadow...
My Shadow.

You've always been there.
You've never seemed to care.
About what I wear,
What I say,
What I do,
How much I weigh.
You never step on my toes,
Or yell louder than me,
You never pushed me down,
Or kicked dirt in my face.
You're the only person I can see,
The only thing that matters to me.

7:05pm: Stranger.
Stranger.
Howdy Stranger.
You are my best friend.
You were never there,
But I never asked.
You do not question me,
You do not know me,
Stranger.
You show me so much love.
You leave great impressions.
From three words,
To a friendly gesture.
My day revolves around you.
Stranger.
You seem to know me,
Better than myself.
Yet we have never spoken.
Stranger Love.
Its unconditional.
Its crucial.
Its what I feed on everyday.
So where were you when I needed you most?
Where have you gone Stranger?
Stranger...?

6:32am: Howdy.
Hey all. MIFA today. Its going to be exciting. Set looks good, actors are nervous, props in postion; perfect for a Excelent show. All of you should come to see it. :)

8:57pm: Hmmm
I hate being sick. I feel like crap. I feel like the warmth in my heart is gone. I feel weak. I need to get warmth inside me again.

8:35pm: Forgotten.
I still see you.

Silence.
You wanted this.
Deviant.
To cause this.
Entangler.
Pain like this.
Demon.
Keep them out of this.
Not even fiery pits can give you protection now.
I too sit in silence.
Waiting to strike.
Once.
Deadly.
Still.
I wait...

11:13pm: Poets Mingling
Poets Mingling.

Frantic.
You bang, then shove filing cabinets.
You've heard those thoughts.
Those Ideas.
A Poet reading poetry,
Like a direct link into another's mind.
More powerful than words or pictures.
Poetic Romance.
Better than a Copy-and-Paste.
Original.
Fresh.
Like untamed thick forests,
Together cutting through foliage,
One step at a time.

9:13pm: Uhg.
Self-critical-clarity
Self-critical-clarity.
These days,
Children play with blood stained shirts.
Teens are a pool of gore.
Adults have become branching, twisting, cold blooded rivers.
Guns don't kill people,
Stress kills people.
Stressful blows lead to more leaks.
Another acidic shot impacts the left shoulder.
Unable to move.
Barely Conscious.
Slowly Falling...

10:43pm: LOL

Your Linguistic Profile:

60% General American English

20% Yankee

15% Upper Midwestern

0% Dixie

0% Midwestern

8:51pm: That Friend.
True Friend.

I was here,
Before you were judged.
Before you became that person.
Before that pain.
I'm always here,
When darkness consumes the Heart.
When bleeding souls howl at the Moon.
When sobbing faeries pray to Destiny.
I will be here,
After God forgets.
After Night sweats.
After it is gone.
I Never left.